Lost in it all

Thankyou everyone, I cannot believe this honor. I've been shedding tears over everyone's praise of this...and it's fitting that the most personal piece I've ever made is the one to touch so many ppl; odd how that works. You have no idea how much I wish more were known about epilepsy, and although I have only had a short brush with it...I feel for all those who battle with it on a daily basis. Once again, thank you so much for DD, I'm sitting here stunned.

A cathartic piece expressing my tiring relationship with my body.
It's quite personal, but I felt it was worth sharing...since I don't do a lot of opening up to anyone, and art says what worse cannot.
Although Ill admit to having it quite good healthwise, between my epilepsy meds making me tired, my IBS limiting what I eat and making food frustrating, and that little voice in my head still ruining my self-worth..I get quite exhausted.

Drawing always pushes my demons back when they start getting the best of me though. I generally try to keep a positive outlook on life, but when things get tough I honestly don't know how people with harder illnesses cope. I just felt this a good representation of my mood lately: longing for some sunshine, and peace and quite. Thankfully my smile is back in full swing with spring finally blossoming, but this is a good reminded of all those ups and downs in life.

As for the illustration the pose is meant to look a little contorted. I'm quite happy with how the lighting turned out...though Im still kind of unhappy with the shading on the back. I think this is as far as I want to take it though.

Thank you again for your comments and support!!!
Sketched and painting in photoshop with a bamboo tablet
10 hours